Who will walk these wooden streets?

all poetry is written by Ryan Kai Cheng Thom, who is (obviously) an aspiring poet. Contact them at ryan.thom@mail.mcgill.ca!

September 11, 2014 at 12:41am
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my father’s hands are rough and calloused

from years of physical labour /

from kitchens, and shovels / from farm fields and logging camps.

mine are soft and delicate /

quick to type essays / tickle pianos /write poetry.

i’m home from university / he shakes my hand

palms pressed together /

i feel the distance (of oceans and eons, that’s all) /

between us.

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i invoke you, living spirits of the now

i call on your bodies: skin, flesh, blood, and bone,

young people of colour,

i see you,

i sing you,

i say your names,

i summon you,

wake up up up up up up up up up,

rise up up up up up up

time to step from the shadows into the light

time to raise your arms and join in the fight

time to open old wounds and set blood to right

time to unite

drive out white 

supremacy from this land,


ideals from our minds,


hands from our buttocks & breasts


boots from our throats,

young people of colour, 

do honour to our ancestors,

their power and pride,

do honour to the voices

that still whisper inside,

young people of colour 



wake up up up up up up up

rise up up up up up up up

drive the imperialist dream out of your mind,

your ancestors died still dreaming of this time,

someone stole your names from you lands from you voices from you

stories from you tongues from you time from you they took your

beauty from you youth from you stole your body from you pride from


young people of colour i see you,

i sing you,

i summon you,

i say your names: Indigenous, Black, Asian, Brown,

i need your strength,

i need your sound, 

i need your stories,

i need your sight,

i need your skin, flesh, blood, and bone,

young people of colour, i invoke you,

living spirits of the now,

we are the revolution,

we are already here.

September 10, 2014 at 12:48am
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you are afraid your heart will stop if you stop working,

(your father once had three jobs and tried to keep it a secret from you)

you are afraid that you will stop if you stop working,

(he didn’t want you to worry, but you noticed he was never home.  the lines growing across his face.  the way his eyes never seemed to focus anymore)

you are afraid you won’t know who you are

if you stop running.

(your mother worked and went to school and cried and worked and went to school and cried and all you were was a lazy, selfish child.  spoiled spoiled spoiled, that’s what you were.)

you have forgotten the difference

between being

and doing.

you can no longer distinguish

between what you are doing

and where you are going.

you cannot explain the difference

between work

and worth.

(your father told you once that there were only two important things in life: family and money.  in that order)

the white man tells you: love what you do, 

because he wants you to work

(your ancestors worked their hands to bone, their bones to stone, to blow holes in the sides of mountains, dreaming of a child who would not have to work so hard)

he wants you to work and be grateful and grovel for more.

your ancestors say:

love who you are.  do what you must.

love who you are. remember us.

August 28, 2014 at 5:08pm
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what good is (my) art

if it neither saves lives

nor remembers the dead?

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to catch a thief

(i ask him, “should i feel exploited?” and he won’t meet my dark eyes with his own baby blues.  i’m such a sucker for blue-eyed boys. lo fan jai, as my baba would say. they look at me from a different place, a different life, a wider heaven.  he says, “i don’t know.  I never lied to you. did you ever lie to me?”)

well, beloved, my baba was a storyteller too.  a fast-talking-sweet-tongued-pull-one-over-on-ya devil.  he could sell you anything: snake oil, shoe shine, tall tales about fabulous people living fabulous lives in distant lands.  shoulda been a laywer, my baba, but poor chinese boys growing up in canada in the fifties weren’t exactly rolling in post-secondary options, so he ended up selling insurance, which is a snake oil all its own.   mother, herself a straight-laced kinda gal, fell in love with his fast tongue and collection of leather jackets, which she found charming in an dangerous, asian james dean kind of way, despite her commitment to seventies’ second-wave feminism and living life as a Strong Independent Woman.  she called him Foxy, she liked to tell us years later, not because of his looks, but because he was the only man in the world who was cunning enough to talk her into a marriage for love and no money.  she said this with a certain bittersweetness, adding more bitter and less sweet or vice versa depending on the day and her mood.

(chinky chinky chinaman sitting on a fence.  tryna make a dollar outta fifteen cents!)

according to chinese legend, the fox is able to live for a thousand years, subsisting on chickens stolen from the coops of hapless farmers and the belief of anyone foolish enough to believe its tall tales.  the fox is a storyteller so convincing, it can talk its way into or out of anything – a chicken coop, a love affair, a tight spot, a locked room

                                                                  a death trap, an oppressive homeland, a political snafu, a faux pas

                                an ancient ruined temple where the old gods still wait for vengeance,

                                                             a thick skin, a oppressive gender paradigm, a lawsuit,

                                               an unwanted pregnancy, the underworld and destiny and all things under Heaven.

 the fox can appear to you as an exquisite, angry woman, her long black hair dishevelled in the wind, or

perhaps a young soldier on his way to war for the first time, or a helpless child lost in the woods.  most often, the fox appears to you as the thing you most desire                      the fox is an expert at

                                         sniffing out the hollow spaces in your soul

                                                                                                                         it knows all your favourite foods,

especially those which you have not yet tasted    all your favourite places      especially the ones you’ve

never seen                          

(to catch a thief of hearts, you must look it in the eye and ask three times: “what is your most precious long-cherished wish?”  to which it will be forced to answer, “i have none, for i was born without a heart of my own”)

you can spot a fox  in disguise by its pointed ears, its teeth slightly sharper than, normal, by its lack of reflection in the mirror.  a fox that has reached a thousand years has worn so many faces that it has forgotten its own.  but most noticeable of all is the hunger in a fox’s eyes, which burns like a torchlight and never goes out, for a diet of stolen chickens and stories may keep you alive, but it will never             

           never                   make you full.

(those chinese kids, they have a lean and hungry look. they read too much.  always studying, trying to get into our medical schools.  such children are dangerous.)

china’s scattered children, we became storytellers by necessity, selling snake oil to survive and playing (and sometimes turning) tricks to stay alive.  gave up our faces to save face, our smooth tongues our saving grace.  me talk pretty engrish for you.  give you big big discount.  i’ll dress up pretty for you, lover.  i’ll be your little boy, sweet girl, shemale, night man day woman dark-eyed  exotic oriental flower blown in on the eastern wind.  i’ll run through the dark of your dreaming to take the shape of the thing you most desire.  i’m yours, if you’ll take me, if you’ll have me, if only you’ll order me off the chinky menu in the food court of love.  i’ve spent a thousand years preparing my mouth for your flesh.   what do i want?  i want to swallow you whole.  hunger scratching like chicken claws at the inside of my belly.  i’ll say anything to get what i desire. i invented this face, these hands, this whole body and spirit on the off chance you might choose me.   i invented language, a homeland, an entire story universe to spin on my fingertip in the hope that i might catch your eye.   like my baba before me, and his mother before him, i invented love out of necessity.  don’t look so scared, honey.  you saw it all along:  my pointed ears, my sharp little teeth, that burning gleam in my eye.  you’ve been the farmer with the gun waiting outside the coop this whole time.  it takes a human to catch a fox.  i never once lied in my heart.

(i ask him if i ought to feel exploited, and he says to me, “i don’t know.  i never lied to you.”  his big rabbit eyes slip away from mine, but i have the gaze of a fox and i catch him.  “you lied to yourself,” i say, and that’s all the story there is to tell.)                                                                                        

August 19, 2014 at 1:29am
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it’s true:

i’m not clean enough to bring home to your mother.

you certainly seem to enjoy that.

August 12, 2014 at 6:32pm
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i didn’t end up killing myself,

but sometimes i still wonder what kind of poetry i would have found on the other side of suicide.  what kinds of letters would i have written to you, the living, my love, from inside that eternal midnight room?  what if this whole life is the mechanical clicking spinning whirring whirling of a gigantic clock, all of us cogs in its inexorable gears - and death the vast velvet stillness that waits for us all?  what if death is a library; somewhere inside, there is a book with the words you have been searching for all this time. all this time.  death may be silent, but it is full of words, and someday, my darling, i will go there whether i will it or no, and i will speak them all.  death is a language.  no one can take it from us.  no imperial army, no colonizing force, no prison, no sanitorium, no government can silence death’s mouth, death’s tongue, death’s pounding hammer drumbeat heart.  listen to it.  hear it.  what if death is anti-capital?  what if suicide is revolutionary?  what if, all those years ago, i meant to tell you something by trying to die?  what if i meant to tell you that the world had to change, that you had to change it, that we needed to stand and bend the iron arms of this clock we call life, that we needed to wake up?   somewhere, at this moment, a man has set himself on fire. somewhere, at this moment, a woman is tying a rope around her neck.  somewhere, at this moment, a child is dying by their own hand.  writing a letter in ashes and in bones and in blood, a poetic manifesto phrased in the vocabulary of corpses: listen.  as i lie dying, listen.  

August 7, 2014 at 12:55pm
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someday they’ll cut this body open

and discover that my flesh is made of sky:

azure, sapphire, cerulean, turquoise, ultramarine,




cirrus and cumulus clouds stirring behind my eyes,

cumulonimubus, alight with lightning,

crackling through the capillaries of the heart.

i am oh so full of rain,

you could fall through me into forever. 


dear scientist, mortuary explorer, search me thoroughly,

tenderly catalogue all my wayward parts.

find somewhere in me,

the forgotten moon, the faded stars.

re-member, reassemble,  this tattered heaven, this


celestial thing.

August 5, 2014 at 4:20pm
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my sisters,

we could spend whole centuries in mourning for what we have lost - and rightfully so.  goddess knows, it seems like every week another one of us is found in an alley, a dumpster, a basement, a cellar, on the highway, tied to a fence, hanging from the ceiling, floating in a lake.  a dead army of strange sisters. weird siblings.  lost girls with lips and nails as blue as the night we were murdered in. sometimes it feels like i could sleep for years, knowing me knowing you knowing what the world holds for girls like us.  but i woke up this morning.  saw the slivered light coming through the clouds through the grime of my unwashed window through the particles of dust. dear sisters.  i am so tired of mourning.  i am so tired of carrying this weight.  heart like a balloon, i am swimming up through what sunlight will come.  i cannot talk about what i have lost today.  i cannot talk about fear today.  i have so much saltwater joy welling up overflowing spilling out of my eyes like rivers.  my sisters.  pain tunnels into you, like a river cutting through a mountain.  it wears you down.  makes you deeper.  you have so much space inside your souls.  you have so much room for love.  the world taught you early how much you had lost, how much less of a person you were for not wanting to be a man.  i need to tell you how much you are worth.  how exquisite you are.  how much i have gained for being one of us: i have learned to shift my shape.  change my skin.  lift my head to the sky and call forth the moon with my song.  a line of ghosts dances behind my steps. my hair is full of stars.  my lips are blue as memory.  as the ties that bind.  as the rivers that flow between us.  strange sisters, weird siblings, lost girls all.  tell me that i am beautiful.  tell me that i am a treasure beyond compare.  a jewel the strand of our legacy.  that i am a dream in the making and someday, years from now, a child will wake and live in the freedom we didn’t have.  that you would not give this up to be someone else.  sisters, i am so glad to be one of you.

July 24, 2014 at 11:50pm
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i have no poems for gaza tonight,

only prayers,

only apologies.

what good are words amid this hail of bombs,

this rain of blood?